/// hey there! I'm...

hunter

I live for movie theater popcorn, seeing the sunset somewhere new, or drinking the first sip of an oat milk latte. But to get here, in gratitude for "the little things," I had to start by dealing with something big...

But most importantly, I finally let go of who I thought I should be to become who I truly am. 

A little over a year ago now, I decided to take my life into my own hands for truly the first time ever. It all came to a head when years of my depressive episodes, constant anxiety and severe food allergies finally got the best of me. I had a massive panic attack and wound up stuck in bed as my mom stood over me yelling through her own tears that I needed help. Real, actual help. She called a psychologist and pestered them until they got me in for the next week. I’ll never forget her face then. We both just looked at each other, defeated. I knew something had to change. I looked at my life and saw that what was happening to me was destroying me, and that it wasn’t too late, but it was getting there. 

And this is what began my "year to self-care". Over the past year or so, I've spent a month on my own in Amsterdam, taken an 8-month long teacher training program, fallen in love (and gotten married!) to the hottest Brit I know, and gradually built a toolbox of solutions, prescriptions, and techniques I can always return back to when I start to feel off-kilter or when my mental health declines. Some homeopathic, others all-natural, and even a bit of medical help when it was needed.







Life. Am I right? It’s crazy! It’s exhilarating! It’s pure, actual magic. If you would have told me a year ago that I’d be HERE, I would have laughed in your face. At some point along my journey, I’d given up hope that life would become easier for me. And it hasn’t been easy, but it’s become real. I think that’s the best way to describe it. My life flows, and feels natural. It comes with hard work and choices every single day, but I see the other side now. I see all the possibilities, and goodness, and that makes up for all the hard work.

This is my story, but I still feel like it’s only the first page. It’s the prologue to the novel that sums up my life. There’s so many chapters yet to be written, and I believe it’s now time I share those chapters as they are written. That’s where I’m heading next. 

In the past, I’ve blogged about beauty, fashion, food, and life, which I’ve absolutely loved. But now I want to dig deeper. I don’t want to skim the surface anymore. I want MORE depth and LESS shallows. I want to empower others to live their truth and find the life that is meant for them. I am so far from perfect it’s not even funny, and I know there are still going to be so many mountains and valleys to go through in my life, and in my mental health. So, I want this to become a place where you can feel safe as can I, where imperfections and failure (I hate even calling it that. Let’s change it to lessons) become celebrated, where we can take that hard-earned journey of self discovery to figure out where the magic of life really is. Everyone has their own, unique path and I want to honor that and help you find your dream life from it. My goal is to create a community of like-minded soul searchers with a passion for living out of the box and not being afraid to risk it all for something better. Or risk it all to recognize that you’re already living in the beauty, you just couldn’t see it before. 

My rose tinted glasses are on and here to stay. And to me, that means that most days I’ll still cry about something meaningless, or have a shitty week where I struggle to get out of bed. But I’ll also strive to look in the crevices of the darkness to find the light within. To feel grateful (which I think is ESSENTIAL to health) and to be okay with whatever path this road takes me. I'd be honored if you'd join me.




/// Hey There! I'm...

hunter

I live for movie theater popcorn, seeing the sunset somewhere new, or drinking the first sip of an oat milk latte. But to get here, in gratitude for "the little things," I had to start by dealing with something big...

A little over a year ago now, I decided to take my life into my own hands for truly the first time ever. It all came to a head when years of my depressive episodes, constant anxiety and severe food allergies finally got the best of me. I had a massive panic attack and wound up stuck in bed as my mom stood over me yelling through her own tears that I needed help. Real, actual help. She called a psychologist and pestered them until they got me in for the next week. I’ll never forget her face then. We both just looked at each other, defeated. I knew something had to change. I looked at my life and saw that what was happening to me was destroying me, and that it wasn’t too late, but it was getting there. 

And this is what began my "year to self-care". Over the past year or so, I've spent a month on my own in Amsterdam, taken an 8-month long teacher training program, fallen in love (and gotten married!) to the hottest Brit I know, and gradually built a toolbox of solutions, prescriptions, and techniques I can always return back to when I start to feel off-kilter or when my mental health declines. Some homeopathic, others all-natural, and even a bit of medical help when it was needed.







Life. Am I right? It’s crazy! It’s exhilarating! It’s pure, actual magic. If you would have told me a year ago that I’d be HERE, I would have laughed in your face. At some point along my journey, I’d given up hope that life would become easier for me. And it hasn’t been easy, but it’s become real. I think that’s the best way to describe it. My life flows, and feels natural. It comes with hard work and choices every single day, but I see the other side now. I see all the possibilities, and goodness, and that makes up for all the hard work.

This is my story, but I still feel like it’s only the first page. It’s the prologue to the novel that sums up my life. There’s so many chapters yet to be written, and I believe it’s now time I share those chapters as they are written. That’s where I’m heading next. 

In the past, I’ve blogged about beauty, fashion, food, and life, which I’ve absolutely loved. But now I want to dig deeper. I don’t want to skim the surface anymore. I want MORE depth and LESS shallows. I want to empower others to live their truth and find the life that is meant for them. I am so far from perfect it’s not even funny, and I know there are still going to be so many mountains and valleys to go through in my life, and in my mental health. So, I want this to become a place where you can feel safe as can I, where imperfections and failure (I hate even calling it that. Let’s change it to lessons) become celebrated, where we can take that hard-earned journey of self discovery to figure out where the magic of life really is. Everyone has their own, unique path and I want to honor that and help you find your dream life from it. My goal is to create a community of like-minded soul searchers with a passion for living out of the box and not being afraid to risk it all for something better. Or risk it all to recognize that you’re already living in the beauty, you just couldn’t see it before. 

My rose tinted glasses are on and here to stay. And to me, that means that most days I’ll still cry about something meaningless, or have a shitty week where I struggle to get out of bed. But I’ll also strive to look in the crevices of the darkness to find the light within. To feel grateful (which I think is ESSENTIAL to health) and to be okay with whatever path this road takes me. I'd be honored if you'd join me.




But most importantly, I had to let go of who I thought I should be to embrace who i truly am.